Not my will, but your WILL, Lord...
I have been doing this wrong for a long time, I say to myself with a bit of angst and a lot of frustration! I keep thinking about my efforts to reinvent myself or re-brand, and with so many ideas popping into my head, I could literally be or do anything I want. And therein lies the problem. What I want is of little concern to God. There is a divine order to this thing called life, and I, like many, have for some reason decided that my whims and desires and preferences and blah, blah, blah...matter. They don't. Now, don't get me wrong, I matter. I matter to God who created me, and to the Son who saved me, and to the Holy Spirit who sustains me. I matter and should take delight in that. I should take as much delight in that as is necessary for me to first seek the kingdom of God. I should take as much delight in that as is necessary to trust in God with all of me and not rely on my own understanding; take as much delight in that as is necessary for me to say ...Not my will, but yours be done. It's no happenstance that the scripture that speaks to me about divine order on Ash Wednesday is the scripture where Jesus almost didn't die for me. Now, there was never a chance of that happening, but the fact of the matter is that he said in Luke 22:42 "Father, if you are willing, take this cup from me; yet, not my will but yours be done." Jesus got it. Lord, I will do what you would have me to do. I will go where you will send me. I will die for them, if that is what you want...not my will, but yours be done.
As the Lenten season begins, and as I am reminded that I come from dust and unto dust I will return, I pray for clarity of mind, heart and spirit; not just for me, but for all my Father's children. May I become undoubtedly aware of God's WILL for my life, may I love and be loved, and may the blessings of God abound.
Amen. Amen. Amen.